Here is what my week will look like for the rest of the semester:
Sunday: Work 10-7, homework
Monday: Babysit 10-2, class 4-7
Tuesday: Class 11-6:15, homework
Wednesday: Babysit 10-2, homework day
Thursday: Class 11-6:15, homework
Friday: Babysit 10-2, work 3-12
Saturday: Work 11-8, homework
REPEAT.
I’ve only just started it, but it’s tiring. Mentally, I am drained from school. Physically, I am drained from work and lack of sleep. Emotionally, I am drained because that’s a very isolating schedule. I’ll see my bf and some of my friends at work, but outside of work? I have no time to see them. I have friends I haven’t seen in MONTHS, some that I haven’t seen in nearly a YEAR. Today my doctor told me I should take up yoga to help correct my posture, but I HAVE NO TIME. I want to get back to running, I want to take a yoga class, but, fuck, WHEN?
I was nearly in tears today because I was just tired. I was tired and I was tired of dealing with stupid people. There was no respite today. Stupid grape sale, stupid boyfriend being called in early, stupid pms-ing.
I really just need a hug. A hug and his arm around me while I sleep. I didn’t realize how accustomed I grew to sharing a bed until this past week. I miss it. Ugh, I am gross.
The upside of all of this is, “OMG, I HAVE MONEY!” Like, I will actually have SAVINGS this year which is a concept that I just laughed at the past couple of years because what money? And my grades will be kickass. I hope. I am using my planner like it’s… a thing that you use a lot. Well, that metaphor went no where, but you know what I mean. Also, what with doing all my homework and really concentrating on my classes (almost all of them for my French major), I should be way more at ease and SKILLED with French by the end of the semester. I mean, after 4 years in France and growing up with a French-speaking father, I speak it well enough, but I want to be able to teach it to my kids, to speak it as easily and as well as I speak English. Right now, that’s not the case. This year should change that.
